The Low Side

I've been pretty depressed over the past two or three days. Yesterday night my mom left for Bali, where she'll be on vacation for about a week. That means I'm going to be without my mainstay support, and that I'll have a lot more responsibilities than usual--taking care of pets, driving my sister around, etc. I think I can handle it, but I'm also apprehensive, considering that my mood has been on the low side lately.

I'm having trouble dealing with how much I like Nick. I feel so needy. When he doesn't text me back quickly, I start worrying; I wonder if he's ignoring me 'cause I'm annoying him. That kind of thing.

In practical news: What made me feel a little better this morning was when I took a shower and got started for the day. I made brownies. I took some photos for my fashion blog.

I guess I tend to get depressed when I have downtime. If I'm busy doing something, my mind is occupied, and I don't get stuck dwelling on the future, or whether Nick really likes me, or something else that brings me down.

I have therapy tomorrow. Hopefully it will be productive and provide me with some positive energy to work with.